Have you ever been in a relationship and felt lonely at the same time? I do. The guy I am with is a great guy. He does a lot of stuff for me and I appreciate him so much. Sometimes I have a hard time expressing it. I think most of us that have been in a long term relationship can relate. I think the reason I feel alone right now is because I don’t feel any emotional support from him with things I am doing in my life. I know it is probably a guy thing. MDPC does support me in many ways. Right now while I have been trying to make a career change he has been supporting me financially so I don’t in cure a huge amount of debt, and occasionally he will also help out around the house without being asked. When he comes home from work he will spend practically all evening on the internet surfing or playing games. I realize this is a habit he has fallen into. We don’t spend much time together anymore. I have tried cooking dinner for him complete with romantic music and candles. That will only last all of 20 minutes then I am stuck doing dishes and he is on his computer. When I talk to him I feel like I am talking to a brick wall. He doesn’t communicate much with me. When ever I confront him he ends up being defensive and yelling at me.
In the process I have realized I can’t change him or his habits, I am the one that has to change. I am going forward with a new attitude to change my life. I have the power to change the things that I don’t like. I am looking at this as a new adventure, to find out what I really like to do with my life. I want to be able to have an independent income that I don’t have to depend on him for financial support.
I am jumping into life with both feet. I am at a point where the changes I make, I will have to live with for the rest of my life, and the changes I am working on within my self will help me to survive anything. I think that MDPC has many great qualities, he is my best friend and I love him dearly, and hope that he appreciates the changes I am making. If he doesn’t like how I change then I will know that it will be time for me to move on. No matter how hard that is going to be I know I can be happy with myself. I think that being happy with yourself is the most important thing you can have.
See my article on Divine Caroline.
